Rev.'d up Laity: or "how I got lost between the either and the or"

I work in a mainline denomination that has a lengthy process of ordination. And as such, there is a very clear line between "Laity and Clergy." Now, even though I grew up in this denomination, I spent considerable time away from it. So the line that I have seen drawn is between vocational ministers and nonvocational ministers. Though I am beginning to wonder if any such line is a good thing. It is difficult, because these distinctions are so easy to make, and in many ways make things easier to understand.

But right now the distinction is on my bad list. Why? I am hidden between the layers, that's why. I am not Clergy, but I am a pastor. I am not ordained by the denomination, but I am ordained for worship ministry by God, (and in a technical sense by the congregation that hired me). Many in the Clergy see me as laity, which according to this denomination I am, and as such, not a colleague. I couldn't possibly understand what they are going through. I couldn't possibly understand the things they learned in seminary (except, I do).

This is exacerbated by the fact that the laity in our church see me as a minister; (the term "pastor" seems to be reserved for clergy) I'm "one of the people on stage," so I don't fit into their group either. Because we have multiple services I am not able to attend Sunday School - the primary source of relationship building here. And so, here I am, lost between the either and the or. To the pastors in my denomination I am not a pastor (though in the truest sense of the word, I do pastor the people), and to the laity, I am not lay. I am marginalized from these significant relationships because each group assumes I fit in with the other.

pray for me. For wisdom, patience, and compassion.
pray for me. For direction, courage, and peace.
pray for me. For resources, ideas, and relationships.
pray for me, in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.